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Ada saatnya seseorang berada dititik jenuh. Jenuh mencintai cinta yang tak terbalaskan.

Aku. Mencintai seseorang yang dia sendiri tak tahu sedang dicintai olehku.
Atau dia yang kurang peka akan perasaanku, aku pun tak mengerti.
Mencintai dalam diam adalah sesuatu hal yang rumit. Kamu bisa patah hati kepada seseorang yang bahkan bukan menjadi siapa-siapa.
Mencintai dalam diam akan membuat perasaan menjadi gelisah tidak karuan. Ingin sekali memberi tahu dia bahwa kita memiliki perasaan padanya.
Entah akupun belum memahami bagaimana cara untuk menakhlukkan hatimu.
Aku menyukaimu, namun sulit terucap dari bibirku untuk memberimu tahu.
Memendam perasaan ini sendirian, itu aku.
Menyukaimu secara diam-diam, itu aku.
Menunggu setiap tweet mu muncul di-timeline, itu aku.
Mengharapkan kita bisa bertemu lagi, itu aku.
Entah apa yang salah dengan teks percakapan kita, denganmu aku tidak bisa mempertahankan percakapan itu.
Entah yang salah aku, atau kamu yang memang tidak menyukai mengetik panjang untukku.
Hanya ingin memberimu tahu bahwa aku menyukaimu saja rasanya sulit.
Salahku yang membuat perasaan ini menjadi terlalu dalam dan akhirnya aku berada dalam fase bosan mencintai. Kamu tepatnya.
Aku hanya senang telah mengenalmu, senang telah bertemu denganmu. You're a nice guy but I deserve to be happy.

Aku permisi..

Sincerely,
Me


So I want to tell you something in my mind.. Something about me and my family..

Like only me who fought in this family and even my dad didn't care. I actually hate my dad a bit but he's still mine and he's my mama's choice.
I'm just wondering, where is the money he gets from his salary exactly? Since my mama died, my brother/sister feeds us every day, and sometimes me. Buy anything with my money. Then what's your contribution to this family, dad?
As people say, money can get people into a fight but could you help me a little? You work, I work. We work together, not alone.

My one and only hope is a house in Semarang. When you retire, there is where we live. Then, when I know the fact that you have mortgaged my mama's inheritance house certificate and you can not redeem it yet. My heart hurt. How can you do that? How can you hurt my mama? And even you have an affair behind my mama, I know it when my mama is alive even dead. You give your money for your affair, isn't it? Can you think a little about your daughter who is still your responsibility?

This is very long time ago, if we want to redeem maybe we should pay billions of rupiah. Or if the person who bought the house certificate that was eventually auctioned off (because it hasn't been redeemed for a long time) is dead and probably will bequeath to the child or grandchild, we must be ready to be evicted from there. Can you imagine? Only just a little debt, you mortgaged it behind my mama. I'm disappointed with you, dad.

Sometimes I'm sad, why we should bear the things done by our former people?

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